February 18, 2008
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Cashing in Grace
I grew up Catholic. 16 years of Catholic school, to be exact. Throughout those years and into my adult personal spiritual development, I have found I simply am rooted in math and sciences - and (gasp) I just don't believe in god. Now, before I have offers to save my soul (like my recent reconnection with B, my best friend at St. Emily's Catholic Grade school - who saw our reconnection as sign from God that she was delivered to show me the true path to enlightenment....) I assure you that I have the utmost respect for religion.
For years, I spent life as a godfearing Christian, behaving "properly" in order to earn a place beyond the pearly gates. I like to think that these days, I behave like a Christian without expecting any reward in the great beyond. I try to be a good person simply because it is right. But according to my upbringing, I do believe I have earned my fair share of grace by this point in my life.
I'd like to cash in some of that grace......
I work in the homebuilding industry. And unless you've been living under a rock the last 2 years, you know that the real estate market is a deep black empty abyss right now. My company is in danger of filing for bankruptcy. And that of course means that people are going to lose their jobs.
If I lose my job, I lose my house. I'm a single mom - and other than a very small 401k, I have no savings - all that was liquidated and spent after the divorce, and I've been slowly starting from scratch since then.
More importantly, though, is that I'm in danger of losing a job I really love. For the first time in my career, I have a job I don't want to leave. One I don't mind getting up for in the morning. One I can imagine still doing in 10, 15 even 20 years. I love this company, the people - and now, it's all in jeopardy. I got rid of the poisonous person, I have worked hard to stay afloat for me and my son, and I found a job that allows me the opportunity to make a really good life for the two of us. In a *poof* it could change everything.
Nightmare.
So I'd like to cash in some grace, please....rain down some luck and fortune this way, even if it means I get a smaller cube up in the clouds when it's all over.
Comments (3)
Aww...honey. I'm so sorry. Maybe things will pick up after the election. I know that everything practically shut down right after Bush went into office. My husband had a job making more than TWICE what he makes now. And I didn't work at all. But right after the election, in a matter of weeks, it was all over. I'm not blaming Bush, I'm just saying...
Hang in there, love. Start looking for other possibilities, though, just in case.
Wow, bummer. Look around then, I'm sure there's something that will work out for you just as well. Either way, you have your health, your love, and your son. You have each other, something many people don't, which already makes you rich. Chin up, sweetie. It will be fine, you'll see.
I feel for you girl, I know how hard it is to lose a job that you absolutely love with no control. I would happily give you some of my grace.