March 8, 2007
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MILF
Last night I caught this new show "Pussycat Dolls: the search for the new doll"....another reality show, girls auditioning to be the next pussycat doll. I am totally addicted.
Ok, so I know I'm not 18 anymore. BUT I SO COULD DO THAT. Of course, I know I am much too fat, but I know I could look like that if I could quit my job, spend my days ONLY dancing, singing and working out.
AND I CAN ONLY DREAM.
I was originally a voice major in college. Dreamed of either Broadway, or knocking Celine Dion off her thrown (back when she was cool). Of course, realized in college there are a LOT of good performers just like me and that it truly is 90% luck and who you know. Plus, the whole vagabond living out of your car thing really has never appealed to me. I like stuff. I like expensive stuff. And I got lucky enough to also be blessed with half a brain, so I ended up switches majors eventually and majoring in accounting and now, while INCREDIBLY bored in my career, I do indeed make a ton of cashola. I got nice stuff. But I have no creative outlet anymore.....
Which is why I was glued to the television last night. I mean, literally, I was sitting two feet in front of it on the floor last night, on my knees. GAH it sucks getting older. The worst part is that when you hit 30, you SOO don't feel thirty. At least I don't. I'm sure its really too late for me at this point to pursue that kind of dream again. I am lucky cuz I don't look too ancient (haha, yet) but at the same time, I'm sure I would look like a moron if I put on leather thigh high boots and went and tried to strut my stuff in a club or something. I guess at some point, you just have to admit its time to modify your dream.
So my new dream is to be a MILF. Yeah yeah, I have a four year old and as great as he is, sometimes I wish I was still single with no kids and 21 again, BUT.....I look at Jennifer Garner, and JLo and Jennifer Aniston and all those other celebs about my age and I think - fuck, they are still WAY hot, there is no reason I can't go marching around the mall or neighborhood making both the college guys AND the husbands look my way.....
Yeah, I'm not obssessed with looks at all.
I gotta go do 1,000 squats now.......then call my therapist.
Comments (1)
GRR!
I was paragraphs into a comment about women letting their physical appearances go when they age, and how it's sad because it seems like many of them don't want to do that but feel that it's expected of them...and then I accidentally hit some key on the keyboard and the comment deleted. Freaking crud! I don't even remember half of what I said.
Anyway, um, I think i was to the part where I was mentioning how you might not be able to go to certain clubs wearing those boots without sticking out, but that there's an awesome thing happening now where women aren't as badly ostracized for continuing to cherish their physical bodies. And that the stigma attached to "older" women flaunting their sexual assets (ha!) seems to be lessening. So I don't think you'd be too out of the realm of normalcy.
But that I'm also very vain, so my bias is showing as I fully intend to be one of those "older" women that never lets go of her pride in her looks, or allows herself to go downhill. If anyone ever dared utter that I should allow my intelligence to lessen as I age, I would pop the person upside their ignorant noggin as the concept is just stupid. But on the other hand I'm supposed to just become some shadow of my former self, and act as if I've been put out to pasture? Uh, no thanks.
I also went into my perverse fascination with the Pussycat Dolls that recently sprung up out of nowhere, and how it was cool to see that someone else watched that show.
Hope you're doing well.